The start or the end ?

2009-07-04T06:06:00.003+08:00

2/7/09
my class bbq at east coast 2pm =.=
i reached there at 4+ only some reached.
power pack, that's why ite is famous for late.
eat, ride bicycle, and slack!
it was fun play indian poker and eating those eggs*
saw ben they all at east coast mac.
come to think of it where's 4D class gathering? long forgotten. LOL
after that went to see sunrise with my classmate and then go off..
i want those photo, TAN ZHI CONG. WHEN'RE YOU GOING TO UPLOAD!

3/7/09
slept for 3 hours, baby came to my house.
tired tired ~
i cook popcorn chicken hashbrown and egg.
eat liao i go vomit. =.=
jialat sia, don't know is my cooking skill got problem or ytd we eat those eggs* the problem?
went to baby house and accompany her. saw leon they all and went for L4D
i suddenly feel i am so noob in gaming. rawrhs!
benny fetch me home, tired. until now still haven't sleep.

i am already missing you badly.
and finally 4/7/09

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!
thanks for everything. (: i believe we can pull this through.
i will only change for the better, i had learnt my lesson. (: muackxs!

2009-06-28T22:44:00.003+08:00

came to update my blog, rotting leh.
hahahaha, morning went to surprise baby. heh.
went to her house downstairs and waited for her.
when she came down i sneak and walk behind her and said : xiaojie, can take number from you?
lol! she shock until sit down until the floor! LOL.
and yeah, school going to reopen. going to put in more effort for my studies. damn pissed with my gpa point.
basketball match coming too. i guess when school reopen i will be very busy. (:
tired..

2009-06-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

sian, these few days things aren't going very well for me.
i did badly for my result.
still got a few things best not to mention.
play bball also didn't perform well today i think?
i just hope no matter what happen you will always be my side. (:
can't wait for the upcoming match for ite.
shall end here ba!
tired tired!

2009-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

went to ton with jiang, chang anthony, zhi cong and wen sheng.

me and birthday boy!

step cool. heh!

hope you enjoyed your 16th birthday. (:

cycle whole night, play bball at the morning.

meet baby in the afternoon. (:

i think i can be superman le! LOL.

i kinda miss sch? LOL!

nothing much

2009-06-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

just feeling bored~ went out with out matthew shar and baby.
went t find matthew let me waited for about 45 mins. =.=
went down t find they all at marina square.
watched i love you man.
hmmm, i don't find it nice.
went back t haig road and send baby home. (:

how sensitive can i be?

2009-06-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

LAKERS WON THE CHAMPIONSHIP.
what i want t see is Cleveland Cavaliers vs lakers.
looking on how they yell when they won the champion but i have nvr ever experience it. =.=
lol!!
tmr going t watch drag me t hell wif baby.
hope you faster recover! ):
i hope everything just remain lidat and nvr change.
duno why feeling kinda shag.. hmm ?

2009-06-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

come t think of it, right after i enter ite.
changes started t surface, sudden change of environment really made ppl drift.
think back our secondary life, and now how we think.
is totally change?
our aims and goal are different.
that's why i hate changes. (:
at least i still have my friends and my beloved by my side.

ow xian ya, my one and only love.
no more flirting girl outside.
you are locked tight in my heart! (:

2009-06-13T03:11:00.002+08:00

i fucking got no mood for anything.
if u all think i dont wanna lend, so be it.
i heard what u said.

reply for tagboard will b delayed.

i want t hold u until my last breathe.

2009-06-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

human only know how t cherish until you have lost it.
i am nt gg t let it happen again and again.
i won't let pleasure take over me!

had been having night life recently, please contact me during evening to midnight. (:
i am so so so tired..
hope school start everythings gonna be alrite.
i dun like changes. (:

baby, i miss you badly.. awww

2009-06-06T23:26:00.001+08:00

4/6/09 was the date that destiny brought us together.
hold my hand n we will walk through thick n thin yea (:
went t play bball wif pao they all.
pao wasn't in a good mood, hmm. shag, these few days my brother all like because of girl then quite down.
hope you all will be fine..
went back wif dear t my hse.
watch a show like 见鬼十
lol, tat one nt scary she oso cannot tahan le.
heh! so sweet just nw.
hope nth goes wrong. (: i love you.

2009-06-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

today jialat.
overslept for my java test.
in the end make up at the noon yea.
heng there was anthony help me.
hoho, and he did a smart thing, cannot say. HAHAHAHA!
after tat went back home.
xianya came t my house, i am like studying today?
evening and night.
in between gt break la.
heh, thx ah. if nt i tink i oso wont study, tmr still got 1 big exam coming up.
stress.
goodluckfor my exam! >.<

i have decided already, i will b there t walk wif u and gain back those confident u need. (:

2009-05-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

yea, came back t post when i saw my blog is rotting.
starting t dropping inside le.
and ya, i duncare hw ppl look at me.. but hw u tink of me is the most important thing t me.
i overcome it soon, i rmb all your unhappines, i will try t change it because u oso did. (:
hope i can plan my time right, for owxianya, brothers and bball.
i just need u t be there when i fall, i gotta admit..
i am really unpredictable.
today had my java test, i crack my head on it oso cant.
jialat le, lidat go on hw i use my cert go out for working skill? :x
had a long day, seeing u everydae is like a MUST le.
lol.
i miss those times, when we all gather and ton tgr.
example like ride bicycle t mountfaber. althought is far, but is enjoying.
hope t have this kinda activity on my holiday.

had a wonderful weekend with my ite friends and brothers ~ (:

2009-05-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

22/7/09

i overslept for my java lesson.
went there left two hours to study, first thing went there teacher shoot my hair le.
is my hair freaking that long? ._.

haha, nbm.

went out wif chang, jiang, cong and anthony to cine Kbox.

sian, bo buffet. made we all so hungry.

but i really enjoyed our day, hopefully for chang & anthony too. (:

hope to hang out with you all guys but nt everytime at yishun play bball! :x

23/5/09

went t benny house t ton.

i only slept for 3 hours poor me.

but count as quite good le, choon, ben and benny didn't sleep at all.

haha, on the way there sinhui took my photo where i only half awake. lol!

damn tired. ><

choon, ben & me.

choon & me fighting against the sun! ><

janet, me benny choon and ben. hahaha, benny doing stun.

benny & me. but i emotion. lol.

the trademark photo. :D

shereen and keli didn't took much photo.

all shall say i only wanted t upload my handsome photo? hahaha! :D

now i am suffering frm sunburnt.

awww, shouldnt so kei ba lan.

i enjoyed this weekend veh much, thank my ite frens & my Eternity brothers. (:

i miss you while i am really.

2009-05-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

had not be updating these few days.
sat went to kenneth house to ton, had quite a lovely talk wif them.
as in we four ppl veh long nvr gather just the 4 of us. ben, jl me and ken.
quite nice i think.
when i & jl walking to kenneth house, many thoughts just came through my mind.
how you used to come my house wake me up everyday, and we bus t school.
i love the old manjusri hell yea.
but i believe things just have to move forward, and t be changed.
in my 18 years of my life, i didn't expect i can put my fucking pride for a girl.
at least i learn a veh valuable lesson. thank you.
i hope the next time i am doing this is because of my wife but nt this.
hahaha!
after tat they play majong all the way, then i & zhebin fell asleep.
almost forgot about choon, he was sleeping all the way. ==
i miss everything abt old manjusri, but i learnt hw t move forward (:

Today :

went to haig road to meet xianya, after tat went t playground t play swing.
hmm, after tat called zhebin dwn to accompany us dwn t wat song song wan buy drinks.
heh, i bet you happy hor? :x
hmmm, went to bc to play bball after tat.
damn tired, 2v3 them.
drained me out totally...
went t city plaza wif xianya t accompany her meet her fren.
after tat send her home den went back t meet jl they all.
i just hope, things will be just nice for me once more.
seeing you everyday keeps my trouble away. (:

To my dearest brother benjamin :

yea, i will support your decision for waiting.
but i hope in the meanwhile if you see a girl tat is suitable for you, you can really go for it and try.
don't because of this and spoil the funhood of the guys! LOL! :x
although we can't? and how we hope we can.
no matter what, i am just a call away.
you showed me you were be there for me when she did tat to me.
i oso will be there yea. (:
bad one don't go, good one won't come.
but still, i respect your decision.
keep in contact. (:

2009-05-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

Feeling : disappointed.

i guess i am going t be busy, tmr going haig road play bball.
after tat tonning kenneth house.
finally a reunion?
long time nvr meet up with ben alrdy, he say we drift? lol agree..
saturday mayb goin t sentosa..
next tues training and mayb next wed goin combine ite trial?
wah, patten alot sia.
i am startin to skip school more and more, jialat liao lidat goes on.
hope t see my last year 4D classmates. (:

i dun care hw others look at me, most importantly is hw you look at me.
can you even understand?

i just shut the past and everything up alright?

2009-05-12T22:11:00.005+08:00

feeling : shag, alone.

sprain my ankle at haig road because of the match wil fren..
sorry for not making simple shots, i duno hw to apologise abt it..
cannot go for the training today.
hair dye again, to light brown as i dun really like the gold colour ?
lol, like one day change one colour..
tinking how am i abt t face my CA tmr, pray tat nothing goes wrong.
i dun wan kena chase out of class because of tis stupid ting.
secondary the same, now hope is at least different abit?
but tings is just the same t me, sec until nw, things really change alot?
i never like changes, but now i am tryin everything to accept changes ppl around me.
i only know i at night, my mood change as the ocean moves.
tat's one ting you say is veh correct abt me if you still rmb.
but dun worry, i won't turn back or hope next time.
i will move on forward at full speed, fast enough nt t let you see it anymore. (:
no more words for me to cause ppl scar.
i just fuckin hate my brain t tink abt you.

goodnight readers.

2009-05-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

hoho, i dye my fringe into gold.
my brother help me d.
but is like damn gold then other part all black like some kinda ahbeng.
my fringe tookme like hours can, so i couldnt make it to play ball.
i am just some good boy..
but abit too obvious duno how am i going back to school to face my teacher.
LOL!
went out to catch a movie, XMEN!
recently keep playing facebook the city restaurant!
but jialat, big test coming and here am i no motiviation for school.
jialat le lidat, now i understand why my ite friends always quite school after a couple of months.
but i gonna be more determine and finish it and get the fucking cert and leave school!
Come t think of it life really boring, nothing special but just doing the same things over and over again.
shag shag shag! sleeping le!
goodnight readers!

my ite life!

2009-05-07T17:41:00.009+08:00

my buddy at ite. (: chang, jiang, cong and me. my ite mates!

this is ah cong, one little worm. :x

chang and jiang.

doing project. i hate the smell!

hmmm , ? peeping? lol

heh. i good boy hor!

was being random.

argh, can't stand it.

luo zhi xiang de song damn nice man!

i overslept today till 10 plus i think ?

really gotta thanks you for waking me up. :D

if not i think i coma le.

went to school in the end me EE lesson over le.

don't know but my EE teacher mood good early release us at 4pm and no test?

miracle sia. :x

went home after that, think no program later on. hmm ?

can anyone understand what's is wrong with me?

i so good boy!

posting out those words in my heart ~ (:

2009-05-05T21:35:00.005+08:00

i acting cute . LOL !

suddenly got the strong urge to post something ?

to be hide in the dark or to know something that hurt you ?

last time i would say of course is know it better .

thing just keep changing ~

how t say ?

when i thought the right one for me is right in front of me , just for a moment ..

it will leave you speechless ?

i guess what WE predicted is correct ?

i wanted to believe if the feeling is strong enough no matter how far we're, heart always there .

just lose contact of a sudden . hmmm ?

but i guess i not like that kinda fairytale the guy . LOL !

don't know why i don't feel sad , but ..

i just find it veh hard to trust anymore girl ? LOL .

normally it would be girl saying this stuff , i feel like i am in the shoe of a girl yea ? cool man !

but for now , i have one clear aim .

just to concentrate on basketball and studies ba .

for the one last time , just let nature take is course ..

if my destiny is there , i will meet my soulmate .

my blog song will be changing again ~ to

罗志祥 - 最后的风度

but imeem is spoil now . ==

2009-05-03T15:44:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating these few days.
was kinda lazy.
i slept alot man! average 10 hours per day. :D
thanks to the medicine the doc gave me.
don't know go into ite is a good or bad thing for me. ==
just think that i thinking too much these few days.
rawrhs! what's happening to me? zzzz.
going to play ball later! shag ~

2009-04-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

maybe is just like what you said i am frickled minded ba.
is true.
not going to let anything conquer me. i will conquer my fear.
the biggest impact shall be the biggest motivation to be the reason makes me grows!

2009-04-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

it was a veh tiring week for me.
i didn't even skip one lesson, cannot take it ah.
so many practical and test is coming.
went back to manjusri with benny.
talk quite alot with benny, lol.
one funny sentence is " i can be monk liao, this is the longest that i have been single "
benny : lidat i more power, i be monk for 19 years liao.
LOL.
don't think too much yep.
can always call me to talk or slack around d.
(:
i went home quite early cause i sick. ==
reached home take out the clothes straight sleep le.

i hate being a scorpio, oversenitive and easy to get jealous.

2009-04-23T19:13:00.003+08:00

guess today is a veh long lesson for me.
i overslept till about 9.30 then went to school?
yesterday played flyFF with my classmate till want faint le.
chiong until lvl 15.
today havor in class till want mad.
after EE went to makan at block 64 there.
went to play bball for awhile, the sun is burning man.
after that i went to buy hair clip as my CA see my hair really veh buey song liao. ==
mafan sia.
haha, after that went back to java class still let him say, but nothing about my hair. heh.
found out that zhicong come to know this girl call meihua at my primary school.
lol, didn't know zhicong like to hong those girl that bigger then her.
:x chatted with her awhile went to slack.
during EE class i got disturbed my the EE teacher confiscate me headset say want put inside her panties. ==
LOL, more teekou then me.
went to bball awhile and went home with ds. (:

i will endure it. to fufill this promise to myself. (:

room for improvement!

2009-04-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

back from school training.
notice from year 2 people our coach recently changed into Y nan coach. ==
2nd training like never give chance liao.
but lucky still got another coach.
however hope i can improve and of course i will pay the price!
maybe now is the best time, to set aim already ba.
get good grades for ite, and get into starter 5 1st team. althought kinda hard.
but my aim. (:
i shall keep myself busy not to think of unnesscary stuff anymore. (:

2009-04-20T14:43:00.002+08:00

blog song changed : 我不会唱歌
won't be updating nor reply any tag until i feel any better. (:

i am a emotional guy

2009-04-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退
我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切你又狠狠逼退
我的防备静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

this song is great, i am changing my song veh often man! (:
went to school to have some open house.
guess i got bluff cause it weren't play bball or something?
LOL, starting help to move thing and slack around only.
after that then play bball, till around 12 i suppose?
choon hao sprain his ankle, cause of the star player. lol..
hope you recover soon.
went for java lesson, i guess it is fucking head pain.
one small idiot letter make my whole program cock up. ==
fed up!
after that went over to canteen to eat, got tampinese ite ppl come to our campus.
wah, here d girls veh different from our school d sia. :x heh!
but i got to restrain myself from watching too much, later i let some people dig out! LOL!
(:
after that went to EE teacher early release us.
went over to haig road to play, i think my performance is worst one.
don't know what's going on.
when my life move smoothly, at a point sure got things happen and stuff.
i hope i am thinking too much.

2009-04-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

i hope i gave you a memorable birhtday. (:
heh.
yep, i find that i need time too.
so is okay.
i don't think i have the mood to blog these few days.
won't be updating until i feel better.
will be replying tags. (:

2009-04-14T04:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMELA SOH YANYU!
I starting to feel i lost again. (:
but it doesn't matter, i know no one will be there. :D
and that's it.. goodnight everyone.

2009-04-13T00:16:00.003+08:00

心若倦了
泪也干了
这份深情
难舍难了
曾经拥有
天荒地老
已不见你
暮暮与朝朝
这一份情
永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人
如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切
我不知道
回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我
心跳爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了
此歌谨献
给我最深爱的洁
希望她能
永远平安快乐
这一份情
永远难了
愿来生
还能再度拥抱
爱一个人
如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切
我不知道
回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳爱
你怎么能了
今夜的你
应该明了
缘难了
情难了
回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了缘难了情难了
缘难了情难了
缘难了情难了
此歌谨献给我最深爱的她,希望她能永远平安快乐.

if you know how to listen you will say nice.

i am not emo, but this song is damn great. (:

is really true, not uncle hor.

just that i know how to listen all type of songs.

but not other then english & chinese. (: LOL

school reopen tomorrow. argh!

2009-04-10T16:26:00.002+08:00

yesterday woke up at 12, which means i slept for only 6 hours.
damn tired, the CMPB thing sure is troublesome.
go there plus come back need about 3 hours plus.
lucky got jianliang and cheehao accompany me go. thanks dude!
went to tiong bahru plaza, saw afew chio bu.
but i never see ah, i veh good boy d. :D
went back home to put stuff, cheehao cannot help me update my dota. ==
sian, need to ask chang you copy and paste to me again.
went to jiot chat to find them play number ball, i guess i first time play.
starting win money in the end, end up losing 17 bucks.
gosh, going broke ler.
play till morning. later i going play basketball, hope the sun faster come out!
so i can enjoy my balling.

i miss you, gotta wait till next tues den can see ya. ):

Fan yi chen song is great! but jaychou is the best! :D

2009-04-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

how should i start?
was a boring day today cause not really many people came down to balling?
but it was still a excited match for us. (:
choon nice assist to me.
but shag, can't follow them to play billard as i need to go down CMPB for the deferring of army.
is quite troublesome, school reopening soon.
exam coming soon, the most importantly is your birthday also coming soon.
great to have the honour to celebrate with you. LOL!
i wanna go out with friends whole day and cycle enjoy the beautiful night scenary with my brothers. :D
really miss those times. but i suppose is hard now because is different school?
this few days my mood is up and down, so if i am offensive i am sorry. (:
maybe i am not that cruel that i thought i could be.
that's why i can't success. for now i suppose.

2009-04-07T02:46:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
i am so sorry for not blogging this few days as i was out with friends.
shall start from monday~
APRIL 6
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YANTING
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEON.
went out with choon, wilson, ben, jian liang, weijie and leon.
after that jo came along.
went to plaza singapura.
went to watch sinjuku accident. ( i think spelling error )
anyway is the jacky chan show, where got sad ending d.
fcuked up, spoiler!
LOL! but i think IP man is still the better show. :D
after that we walked to cine, we happen to saw this one funny girl wearing in green.
she was like walk half way then suddenly like dancing? LOL!
we were like rolling on the floor laughing?
damn funny sia, i & joseph keep making fun of her. :x
went to cine to sing k.
we planned to ordered the cake for leon, after that we kept quiet until the cake arrived. (:
he was quite surpise when he saw that. hope we gave you a memorable birthday.
come to think of that, my birthday is just another normal day to me. :x
sang till 6am? when the bill come was like $211.++
the birthday boy pay the full amount of it.
i was like quite blur when i heard him say we come out happy jiu hao.
money wise no need worry, touched*
thanks man! :x
went to met janet awhile as i still cannot sleep, ask he about school stuff all these.
but choon, if you all fucking see this don't anyhow think. kukujiao. ==

april 3.
as i almost totally forgotten what had happen because i go home sleep wake up jiu go out le.
hmmm, i still remember this dated as it was the important one.
heh!
went out with pamela soh!
actually is meet 1pm at toa payoh interchange.
i overslept, == when i rushed down there, she need to go for sakura meeting le.
i wait and wait, wait for i think 3 hours. ==
feel proud k, i think this is one of the longest that i waited!
we went to cine, actually wanted to watch coming soon.
because i wanted to see some people scream as the idiot is laughing me for about 2 months because i once shouted arghh cb nb arghhh. about the shutter show. ==
cause really shocked me.
we bussed to plaza singapura.
went to watch fanboys.
i was like quite sian when i go inside the cinema.
because turn on something like related to starwar?
but nevermind la, is quite a funny show, best is till not to watch that unless you got watch starwars. (:
inside the cinema i blur some naughty girl that something dropped inside her bag.
turn out to be the first gift i gave you.
i think is special cause if i never remember wrongly, this is the first time i brought something like this to gave girl as a gift?
hope you loved it. (:
enjoyed the show and we went out of the there, slacked at there.
talked about quite alot of stuff, when we're with friends in secondary old days.
how i and my friends play true or dare to make each other to be more like a fool!
walked her to mrt and i went home after that. (:

i had a bad dream.
it may me remind of unnesscary past that wonders around me.
said it may made me sounds damn so silly man!
so why do i even think about it?
i got t admit it i do still think about it, but not for long.

2009-04-02T11:59:00.002+08:00

hahaha, i am back to normal.
think i felt down due to insomia?
or maybe i saw some picture that i thought i get rid of?
haha, anyway.. today is a new day.
went down to yishun to play basketball with my ite friends, when reached there they like so shocked to see me, cause they thought i put aeroplane theem? ==
LOL.
then the idiotic chang still hope i never turn up then go eat.
all wanna eat only, zzz.
after ordering one chicken shared among six of us, we were like damn full.
find a place to slack for 2 hours?
went back to basketball again, this time ask for next team.
my overall impression for there the basketballer is... hmmm, not good. ==
but so far so good!
cause i met pamela! heh.
got disturbed by her at yishun mrt.
but as everything is like so sweet, moment with her always past too fast.
i find it forever not enough time? (:
piggyback her to find her garfield? hahaha.
so funny, yishun mrt there the people thought we were mad i suppose.
but i don't care since i don't want my action to be affected by the people around me.

2009-04-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

你是否忘记了

那时候的笑容

如果我已不在你心中

舍不得为什么

你说过的以后

留下我能不能圆梦

那天空云很多

看不见你的轮廓

只剩下太多来不及说

(是我你好吗没什么事只是想知道你好不好这是我最后一次打给你了希望你好好照顾自己)

不说出的温柔

让你离开我

我以为你都会懂

等着你

我才发现难过

很难说

有没有想念过你的手

可能是我不愿去触碰

不记得本来你有没有擦口红

反正是我已经错过那天空云很多看不见你的轮廓

剩下太多来不及

说想哭的冲动

开始在失去以后

才等着你的手拥抱我的寂寞

该说的时候早应该大声的说

那种认真的沉默

弄巧成拙

不说出的温柔

让你离开

我我以为你都会懂

想哭的冲动

开始在失去以后

已经擦干了泪

为何还有点痛

该说的时候

早应该大声的说

爱已经留下缺口

剩下沉默

不说出的温柔

让你离开我去拥抱你要的梦别担心我我会好好过

this a veh nice song if you still remember it. (:

2009-03-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

whoa, few days stayed at home.
so boring~ dota dota dota.
hmmmm, today went to haig road and play basketball.
see choon face like want die don't want die.
damn scary sia, hope he recover soon! (:
these few days many thoughts is in my mind, think is my phobia causing me to be like this.
emotional, afraid to get hurt? last time i won't ever give a damn?
hahaha, got to be strong.
the forehead big big that girl, keep work work work!
lol, no time for me, but i forgive her for finding time for me. (:
but still.. i am afraid?
but i suppose afew words from you is enough to give me all the courage i need.
suddenly i miss clubbing. ==

2009-03-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

came back to blog, firstly thank you pamela for helping me to change my blogskin. :D
beeshang too for the previous one. heh.
i suddenly recall back of many things.
so yep, firstly i got to thanks for you appearing when i am in deep despair.
giving me those comfort that i needed the most.
words can't describe how much i felt so lucky to met you. :)
today i suppose i took something sweeeet from you. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
i will cherish it. hehhhhhh.
secondly, not to forgetting.. my brothers had been giving me those comfort.
whenever i asked them to drink, they know why.. but they just want me to feel better.
benjamin, kenneth, jianliang, choonrong and wilson.
thanks for comforting me when i needed help most.
i can proudly shout out this sentence now.

You are completely out of my life.

2009-03-22T23:59:00.001+08:00

i am finally feeling better le. (:
haha, ate laksa just now.
happy happy, ate my favourite food. :D
haha, thanks for being there.
whenever i see you like magic can erase off my trouble. really enjoying whenever with you.
heh. putting down bit by bit.
i am really glad that i met you when i am in my most miserable state.
we both can do it de. cheeeeeeeeeeers!!

haha, 2 weeks? LMAO

2009-03-20T23:59:00.001+08:00

wah piang eh, damn fucked sia.
eat what vomit what! feeling damn shag!
play dota, watch some show.
went to play bball, had quite alot of fun with them.
i keep step one and1 until all of them cannot stand it and play with me back? heh! (:
took bus went back home, ate noodle, but gosh... i think i gonna vomit again!
WTF WRONG WITH SINGAPORE FOOD?
why like so many ppl kena?
shag shag shag! think gonna sleep soon.
goodnight everyone... zzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-03-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

happy birthday yvonne
damn shag, wake up early in the morning vomit two times. ._.
after that didn't went for S&W.
slept till 1 then went school, in the school smell the food also feel like vomiting.
think i kena food poisoning or what.
sibei sibei shag can.
but thanks for accompanying me.
you came all the way here, really touched*. LOL
forehead so big and nice t hit. :x
shall end here, hope tmr will feel better.

2009-03-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

went to zouk for clubbing.
shaking off my trouble, but i think my school i die le.
my attendance like going to become choon rong liao. omfg.
LOL!
when a guy told you, you mean everything to him, he really do.
but once a guy decide to leave, nothing can really changed his mind anymore.
what come's around goes around.
move forward, smoking won't do any help.
live better, be more happy to prove it to me.

2009-03-14T03:34:00.002+08:00

many things happen recently!
i am really sorry, but i don't want to turn back to the past.
all those times, i really give it my 100% to woo you back.
that's why i wont have any regret.
how much i get hurt you also wouldn't know.
now, i don't want to turn back le.
is really too late for everything.
rmb to cherish those people important around you.

is okay, that's your point of view.
no matter how other's look on me, i just want her to understand.

2009-03-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

oh god, what went wrong?
what must you giving me challenge one by one?
i am veh tired fighting against it..
when you lose something veh important to you, then you will learn to treasure.
this is human nature.
every human being in this world will take things for granted.
when you lost it, then you want it back.
my heart is really dead.. god, please don't toy with my life anymore will you?

2009-03-10T14:10:00.002+08:00

范逸臣-放生

地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻
无聊的人常在这里出没
交换一种寂寞
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁就
我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生留下活口
爱的时候
说过的承诺
爱过以后
就不要强求
从此分手
不必再回头
各自生活
曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火
燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默
再没有什么舍不得
放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净利落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸
我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生
彼此留下活口

come on, let everybody think i am the one who mistreated you okay?
Just remember, if you ever treat another guy like this, the guy would have run long ago.
mark my words.
i won't be there for you anymore.
i lost the girl who i trusted the most, at the same time i learn a valuable lesson.
the one who you trusted the most, he/she will be the one who inflict the most damage to you.
i broke the promise to myself, this will be the first and the last time.

2009-03-08T22:31:00.001+08:00

stayed at home whole way to think.
got to make up a decision real soon. hais.
if you were earlier maybe things will turn out veh different.
my test coming real soon!
next week going to be a veh busy week, but finally after that is 3 weeks of holiday! yay!
got to study le! =x

2009-03-05T23:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN ONG YONG HAN!
i think i struck with my contact lense for about 3 hours?
sian, like a fool cannot take out need ask jl come help me.
veh troublesome sia.
in the end late meeting them? :x
went to cine to ate hongkong cafe. the rice like stone lidat. =.=
want watch movie only left one show? sian sia.
need to headed back to haig road? in the end went to katong to play billard with friends.
about morning 7am then reach home? :D

if you all don't know a single thing, or let's say she didn't even mention about it.
just blame on me, 4 months isn't enough for a yes or no.
so my fault? i should continue play the part of a fool longer?
LMAO!

2009-03-04T11:59:00.002+08:00

hello! back to blogging!
i want to keep this a habit so i came back to blog.
it was quite a fun day i had with you.
thanks for being my partner. (:
it is really fun with you. slowly enjoy your trip back ah!
hahahaha. :D

the matter is you want or don't want, i asked you so many times.
now you are blaming me saying i don't want?
you dragged for about 4 months?
not enough time ma? (:
don't mention about those hurting words you said, can you even keep one simple promiese? (:

2009-03-03T15:06:00.001+08:00

i believe i can find somebody better, not neglecting me & give that kinda of attiuade.
next time don't give people false hope anymore. don't hope for friends.
thanks for the concern my friends. (:
there is no need to think anymore. from this point on, is all over.
goodbye my lover. (:

you won't come back anymore. for the last time.

2009-03-02T13:20:00.001+08:00

i am waiting your answer every moment after i woke up.
2nd august when we 1st together, 3rd of march that determines all.
today seem to be the final of all, i promise myself not to drag this on anymore.
i am sorry, i don't mind being a idiot waiting, but i can't afford take those damage anymore. (:
this year is my turning point, i promise, the next time you see me, i won't be the same guy you know.
not to change just to let you see, but to prove it to myself, i can do it.
strong feeling ah, everything will changed after tonight! :D
readers, please don't think i am emotional, i am a abit sad but happy at the same time.
tonight will be the last night i think of you.

2009-03-01T18:35:00.002+08:00

everything seem to be clear enough to me see.
i am strong enough to face the reality.
family and brothers seem to be the only thing i can trust. :D
my first post! reader must leave a tag before you go k? (: